Torn

I feel like I'm going nuts! On one hand, I want to have this baby NOW!!! On the other, every time I feel her kick or punch or have the hiccups, I feel like I'm gonna miss all of that so much! ...but not enough not to have her ASAP!!! The waiting is killing me! I almost wish the doctor hadn't said that she should come now, because before that the hopeless feeling made me not expect anything. Now, every fake contraction I have just drives me crazy, and I keep wondering, is today the day?